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Autumn Playlist (SIDE B)

The Autumn Playlist continues with SIDE B.

Two years ago I put together a playlist to perfectly describe the season of autumn/fall. It starts with saying goodbye to summer and accepting that autumn is here to bring many changes; after a serotonin-filled summer of warmth and relaxation, the weather is now about to get cooler and a sense of loneliness is coming upon us. It’s easy to feel lonely as the days get darker and we see less sunlight. The playlist continues with the theme of Halloween and all the spookiness that comes with it — scary, yet fun at the same time. Spirits, ghosts, demons, etc. can represent all things that are buried so far deep inside of us that we pretend they don’t exist, all things that haunt us until we confront them. And as the days grow darker, we understand what it means to let go — by starting a fire and burning down the past. By now the leaves have turned a beautiful gold to mirror the beauty of letting go. Finally, the night is here and we are ready to breakaway.


1. Fall Into You — [Sunny Lax Remix] by Cosmic Gate & JES

I’m gonna fall into you, just fall into light, under the midnight sky.”

Here comes Fall, before we are even ready for it. It’s time to let go, it’s time for an uncomfortable transition that we must embrace. But it’s not about running away, pushing anything away, or any sort of forced movement. It’s time to go with the seasons and do what feels most natural.

2. Season Of The Witch — Lana Del Rey

“When I look over my shoulder, what do you think I see? Summer kept lookin over his shoulder at me.”

This 1960s cover song is absolutely perfect for autumn. Welcome to the season of the witch.

3. Summer’s Gone — [Yoel Lewis Remix] by Alexandre Bergheau

The night tells the truth, but I don’t wanna know it now.”

It’s time to accept that summer is over. Autumn brings loneliness as the days get darker. It’s vital to remember that darkness comes to bring us truth and understanding. It is the only way we can face our demons in order to set them free.

4. Harvest — Of The Trees

[Instrumental]

In the olden days before grocery stores, autumn was a season of harvesting crops and conserving them in preparation for the dead of winter. In modern times we can still relate — collecting fun summer memories in anticipation of the lonely winter. As we gradually spend less time going out, and more time cozying up in bed with a heated blanket, we transition from “doing” to “reflecting.” We harvest our experiences and think about what we learned, what we would do differently, what we should change.

5. Sweater Weather — The Neighbourhood

Head in the clouds, but my gravity’s centered.”

As we get into October, it’s officially time for snuggly sweaters… yet still warm enough for high-waisted shorts.

6. Darkside — Alan Walker

Don’t be afraid, the shadows know me.”

The more you fight the darkness, the stronger it gets. The more you suppress the darkness, the greater power it gains. Slide into the darkness naturally and without fear.

7. The Veil — Black Sun Empire [ft. Noisia]

“It has been a long journey of deep sleep and automation, but now the veil is no longer.”

Halloween marks the time when the veil between the living and the dead is at its thinnest. The veil is what blocks us from awareness. Once removed, we see things that we believed could not exist. What would happen if you removed the veil between the consciousness and the unconscious?

8. Ghosts – Japan

“Just when I think I’m winning, when I’ve broken every door, the ghosts of my life blow wilder than before.”

This is an experimental track from 1982. It is an eerie song about feeling cursed. I really like the use of xylophone here.

9. Don’t Get Spooked — Dubloadz [ft. Virtual Riot]

There a many strange happenings, my boy, many mysteries beyond the power of the human mind the comprehend.”

This spooky song totally captures the mischievous nature of the season. Play with your fears, have fun with them!

10. Friend of the Devil — Grateful Dead

I set out running but I take my time.”

This reiterates “making a deal with the devil.” What goes up must come down, all highs come with lows, everything catches up to you, no such thing as free lunch, etc. “The devil” is generally used as a symbol that represents everything that is negative. However, symbolically speaking, “the devil” essentially represents “the deal” — giving something up in order to get something else. It is not necessarily evil, nor is it holy. The things we fear the most in life are the things that can give us great pleasure and great pain, simultaneously.

11. Insanity — Mangal Suvarnan [ft. Eshani S]

“You’ve made a slave out of me with your memories.”

To lose your mind means to give up everything you know. It’s not uncommon to find yourself in situations when you are forced to reconsider everything you thought that you knew was true.

12. Cry Murder — Sumo Cyco

“Gonna go off on a tangent like a bandit thief in the night.”

You have to release all your rage and anger or else it will bubble up inside of you as resentment and come back later to haunt you. Halloween is when we dress up in costume and disguise ourselves in order to let our evil parts come out. Suddenly we all have a morbid sense humor and an admiration for horror films, as we decorate our house with skeletons and bloody vampires. (Sure some of us are like this all year, but this is the only socially acceptable time to embrace it.)

13. Dead AF — Krewella

Dancing with the skeletons out of all the graves you dug.”

Zombies walk among us. This song is about lifeless people who are still alive (zombies) because the only thing that they live for is money. They buy all their “friends” and rely on money, instead of good character, to win people over. Watch out for the zombies, steer clear of them if you want to stay alive.

14. bury a friend — Billie Eilish

“When we all fall asleep, where do we go?”

The message I get from this song is, “should I forgive you or kill you?” — to “kill someone” by cutting him/her out of your life and making him/her feel dead to you. And to “kill someone” means to kill a part of yourself — the memories and feelings inside of you that are tied to that person — essentially committing suicide. As dark as the song may seem, it is actually a positive message of forgiveness.

15. Eyes on Fire — Blue Foundation

“Felling any foe with my gaze.”

I see this as having the bravery to defeat your enemies — and the greatest enemy we have is ourselves. All of your ghosts, demons, etc. can be taken down as long as you believe in yourself. This song comes just as Halloween has ended, as the veil begins to close again and the dark begins to give up its fight with light. After making it through the scariest part of the year, you can now relax and have faith in your ability to overcome darkness.

16. The Gold It’s In The… — Pink Floyd

Count me in on the journey, don’t expect me to stay.”

November brings falling golden leaves. I see this song as feeling detached from the world and comfortable with letting go. Just going with the flow. There is great confidence that comes with embracing insecurity.

17. Fire and Gold — Bobby Saint

“Believe it, you’re a phoenix.”

Autumn is the process of burning down and surrounding yourself to death, so you are ready to be born again the winter.

18. Burn — Ellie Goulding

“They gonna see us from outer space. Light it up like we’re the stars of the human race.”

You burn down the past by letting go and learning to live in the moment. Worries, anxiety, and stress are all of the negative things that prevent us from fully feeling the present. Free yourself!

19. Golden Hair — Syd Barrett

Watching the fire dance on the floor.”

Syd Barrett is an interesting man who must’ve had the strangest, most colorful mind. This song is a balanced blend of eeriness and tranquility. How can someone make you feel so comfortable yet uncomfortable at the same time?

20. Good as Gold — Greyson Chance

I see the light at the end of the dark”

As we enter December, we truly feel the cold in this world and it becomes harder to keep your head held high. Everything around us has died — now we are ready for a fresh start. We made it through the darkest part of the year, we took down our personal demons, and now all that’s left to do is forgive. Keep going, the light is on it’s way — December 22nd.

21. Breaking Ties — OceanLab

How could we be so right and so wrong?”

Guilt is a heavy chain we wear that prevents us from reaching our higher selves. Forgiveness is freedom. Break free from the past and embrace a beautiful new beginning.

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Garden fairy

Ivy was a garden fairy who guarded her plant friends with fierce protection. On days when the human gardeners slacked off and left her garden dehydrated, her anger caused a rainstorm, and this kept her plant friends happily hydrated. Her garden was upmost important to her, for she felt so passionate about the plant kingdom. Often she would cry about the state of Earth’s environment and the recklessness and carelessness of humans.

At times she felt so distraught that she caused wild thunderstorms and hurricanes, instead of light rainfall. Once, she accidentally struck an innocent man with lightning during one of her tantrums. Immediately remorseful, she examined the intimidating man to make sure he was okay, while attempting to remain hidden.

But he saw her! And she gasped!

“Look what you did!” He cried out.

The garden fairy apologized and explained herself — explained that her rage was because of the carelessness and recklessness of humans.

“Then you’re a hypocrite!” He yelled, “your carelessness and recklessness has knocked down the trees, flooded the town, destroyed the very same environment you claim to protect!”

“I can heal you,” she offered, yet he refused. She was so terrified by his anger that she flew away and found a hiding spot, deep in a cave.

Humans cannot see the fragility of a fairy’s heart, nor the fragility of the planet they reside on. We see the power of nature and her resiliant strength — but that does not mean she is bulletproof. We cannot see her pain, her insecurity, her cries for help.

Ivy wanted to live in that cave forever, hiding away from the rest of the world. She could befriend the rocks and never have to deal with another human ever again.

Yet giving up was not an option — because the plant kingdom needed her help. The garden she lived in, and all the other gardens she frequently visited, would perish. And so she cautiously made her way out of the cave and back into the greenery.

Flying back to her garden, she paused to look at her reflection in a pond. All she could see were her flaws — inside and out. And all the frustration came back and she just wanted to flee back into the cave. But instead, she took a deep breath, and pushed herself to keep going.

Immediately upon the return to her garden, she sought out the wise grandmother tree. She fell to her knees and pressed her hands against the tree, praying for wisdom.

Cave Exploring

I hiked over eight miles with Kev along part of the Appilation trail! It was beautiful!

This is the cave we explored! We had to crawl through this little entrance and use flashlights because it was pitch dark. I was terrified about bats (or big foot!) but it was so much fun. We want to come back and go further into the cave with at least a third person or a group.

Needless to say, my feet hurt!

Elements of the self

What is innocence?

It is the ground, the soil of the earth. It is the very beginning. It knows nothing: neither right nor wrong. Everything simply is. There is no knowledge, no prior experience to build a solid belief system. It is the fool. It will accept everything without question, refusal, or denial — absorbing it all like a sponge. Like the ground, it accepts both the nourishing rain and the polluting litter. It has no guard or defense mechanism. There is unsuspecting trust, blind optimism, and illogical hope. To be in the presence of innocence brings a sense of feeling accepted, unjudged, and able to let one’s guard down. Innocence is peaceful and calming: it will never test you or trick you into anything because it does not have the capacity to see any living creature in a negative light. It never seeks revenge because it has no developed concept of justice. There is a saintly need to protect innocence before painful experiences cause it to cease existing.

What is ambition?

It is the fire. It the determination to take action. It is a limitless energy, building upon itself and getting stronger with time. There is intense focus burning down a razor sharp path. Unlike innocence, ambition is completely knowledgable and fully aware of exactly what it wants. There is an unshakable, inner faith. A deep understanding of oneself sparks the confidence that pushes forth ambition. It seeks righteousness through passionate expression. Anyone who attempts to control it only adds more fuel to the fire. Such powerful energy is required for creation — yet in order to create, one must first destroy. Ambition is the driving force behind change. It is both extinction and renewal joined together to breed something new. Ambition is never fully satisfied with the present: fixated on the future and always thirsting for more. This energy exists on a supernatural plane because it is the process of manifestation which is just another word for “magic.”

What is expression?

It is the wind, the movement of the air. It is the product of shifting energies. It can whistle loudly and whisk through the trees, or be gentle like a soft breeze. It is clever and sharp-minded; while ambition may have full awareness of oneself, expression has full awareness of everyone, because it is everywhere (like the air we breathe.) It exists in an infinite amount of forms; it is ever-changing and can be perceived in an infinite amount of ways. It is the sharing of information representing one’s own personal truth. It flows through every being to form a chain. It travels from one person to the next, interconnecting one another. It is the exhaling of thoughts that the surrounding environment inhales. It is the community, the greater whole, the collective consciousness. It is the interactive web that holds every living creature together on a spiritual level, yet not at all visible to the physical eyes.

What is regeneration?

It is the water that washes away all impurities and removes all blockages. It is the rebirth of a new cycle, the finale before the next act, the ending before the new beginning. It is the forgiveness of the judgement day. It is the rebalancing of the scale. The heavy body becomes lighter while swimming in the ocean; gravity loses its affect. It breaks the chains of compulsion, habit, and anything else that one feels tied to. All that has been tainted is now purified. Deep introspection helps the mind become more fluid and shape itself into something fresh through new patterns of thought. Knowledge is disintegrated and ripped apart into pieces until completely dissolved. The past is forgotten and a space is created for new experiences that will give birth to a new belief system. This clears the way for innocence to be reclaimed once again.

Fairy of Spring

The fairy of Spring walks down a garden path because she does not yet know how to fly. Seedlings that have been planted are now just beginning to sprout, revealing themselves. It is the start of new growth — and in order to grow, there must be care, nurturing, and patience involved.

New beginnings are uncomfortable because they require radical change. Yet before a bird can leave its nest, its comfort zone, it must go through an incubation process. It must feel strong before it can fly away.

The birds are chirping frivolously as the fairy of Spring makes her way through the wilderness. It is not long before she stumbles upon crossroads. There are many different turns she could take. Her heart is clouded by the pain of others and she perceives why she cannot fly: the pressure is weighing her down.

Some paths are darker than others. Some paths look safe, yet not as colorful as the other paths. Some paths are full of prickly thorns — yet they will eventually turn to roses if she were to push through. Some paths have dead ends while other paths will have her walking in circles.

While the fairy of Winter is able to hide away from the world in a deep sleep, the fairy of Spring calls for action and presence. Her and the birds embark down a path that they are instinctually called to.

“I come bringing sunshine and warmth,” she announces to the world, “after a long period of rest and reflection.” And she continues, “however I also come with thunderstorms, pouring rain, and gusts of wind… this is necessary in order to create change for the better… and soon you will see a rainbow.”

NATURAL BEAUTY HAUL: ultimate self-care supplies!

I recently went on an all-natural beauty haul! It is so important that we remember to take care of ourselves. Our bodies are temples: life-breathing, miraculous vehicles that deserve our full attention and care. It’s true that 99% of beauty products on the market are full of toxic chemicals, carcinogens, organ-disrupters, and lots of other junk. I believe that less is more — you don’t need ten different creams for ten different body parts and you don’t need to spend a fortune on things that are useless. The body is naturally self-cleansing, however, with all of the pollutants in our environment and every-day stressors we face, it is vital both physically and psychologically that you give your body some natural lovin’.

Aloe Vera Gel

Aloe vera is a plant with amazing healing properties. It is ideal for burns — has a nice cooling sensation. The brand I purchased is called “nature sense” and it contains environmentally-friendly preservatives that gives it a shelf-life of two years. It is also cruelty-free and no fragrances or artificial dyes.

Goat Milk Lotion

This is (obviously) not vegan, it contains goat milk which makes your skin feel super silky and moisturized. It has nutrients for your skin such as vitamin A, vitamin B3, potassium, and zinc. Also, no fragrance. This is perfect for sensitive skin like mine.

Thayers Facial Mist: Rose Petal

This is a skin toner derived from Native American formula. It contains witch hazel and aloe vera. Just a spritz or two on the face will leave you glowing. Very refreshing.

All-Purpose Egg Shampoo

This is a strange one, but egg shampoo is an ancient beauty secret. Actually not too strange, if you have ever looked up DIY hair-masks, “egg” is usually an ingredient. It also doubles as a body-wash. I have not tried it yet, but it supposedly washes skin and hair without drying it out like most soaps/shampoos. The company is “Mario Badescu” and the exact ingredients list is: deionized water, ammonium lauryl sulfate, sodium chloride, egg.

Himalayan Pink Salt Scrub

A great way to exfoliate your skin is through use of salt scrubs or sugar scrubs. It has a rough texture, yet leaves skin feeling super smooth. Although the body naturally sheds dead skin cells, exfoliation speeds up and encourages the process, making your skin much smoother than normal.

Indian Healing Clay (Face Mask)

Add a bit of water and/or apple cider vinegar to this magical clay, and you have yourself a face mask! This is literally just one ingredient itself, nothing more. It helps remove toxins and impurities from skin.

Aloe Beautiful Foundation

Mineral makeup is a type of makeup that consists of inorganic minerals of the earth. While mainstream makeup is no good for the skin, mineral makeup actually helps to heal your skin every time you wear it. I like to wear a light-coverage foundation and tend to switch around brands — haven’t tried this yet but looks promising.

Tallow Soap

Another ancient beauty secret, tallow (beef fat) is supposed to be extremely beneficial for your skin. (This is NOT vegan!) The soap I purchased is literally just tallow — no additives. A little nervous because my cat keeps sniffing it… please don’t eat it…

Body Brush

A body brush exfoliates the skin and also improves blood circulation. It is necessary to motion brush away from the heart. Best time to use it is right before a shower so you can wash away your dead skin cells (yuck).

Which natural products do you recommend? How do you care for your body?