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Dollar store haul ~ HALLOWEEN decor

One of the best parts about Halloween season is the spooky atmosphere! As a little girl, I would always insist on getting new decorations every year because we had to have the coolest and scariest house on the block — it was a must!

I recently took a trip to the dollar store: on the hunt for some festive decor. I was not disappointed. The dollar store is the best place to find a cheap surplus of halloween decorations. You won’t find anything crazy like fog machines or strobe lights, but you will certainly stumble upon some hidden gems…

Orange-and-black garland ~ you can get creative with this: hang it up, drape it across, wrap it around…

Halloween wall hanging ~ this could go for like $20 at Target

Witch sign ~ how do I join?

NO TRESPASSING tape ~ this is perfect for doors

Skeleton hanging ~ this thing creeps me out

Skeleton hanging ~ same thing except this one is cute

Skeleton wine glass ~ feel fancy while you drink vampire blood

Pumpkin hanging ~ that classic jack-o-lantern face

Spiderweb ~ looks like this purple widow caught a cat in her web…

Autumn Playlist (SIDE B)

The Autumn Playlist continues with SIDE B.

Two years ago I put together a playlist to perfectly describe the season of autumn/fall. It starts with saying goodbye to summer and accepting that autumn is here to bring many changes; after a serotonin-filled summer of warmth and relaxation, the weather is now about to get cooler and a sense of loneliness is coming upon us. It’s easy to feel lonely as the days get darker and we see less sunlight. The playlist continues with the theme of Halloween and all the spookiness that comes with it — scary, yet fun at the same time. Spirits, ghosts, demons, etc. can represent all things that are buried so far deep inside of us that we pretend they don’t exist, all things that haunt us until we confront them. And as the days grow darker, we understand what it means to let go — by starting a fire and burning down the past. By now the leaves have turned a beautiful gold to mirror the beauty of letting go. Finally, the night is here and we are ready to breakaway.


1. Fall Into You — [Sunny Lax Remix] by Cosmic Gate & JES

I’m gonna fall into you, just fall into light, under the midnight sky.”

Here comes Fall, before we are even ready for it. It’s time to let go, it’s time for an uncomfortable transition that we must embrace. But it’s not about running away, pushing anything away, or any sort of forced movement. It’s time to go with the seasons and do what feels most natural.

2. Season Of The Witch — Lana Del Rey

“When I look over my shoulder, what do you think I see? Summer kept lookin over his shoulder at me.”

This 1960s cover song is absolutely perfect for autumn. Welcome to the season of the witch.

3. Summer’s Gone — [Yoel Lewis Remix] by Alexandre Bergheau

The night tells the truth, but I don’t wanna know it now.”

It’s time to accept that summer is over. Autumn brings loneliness as the days get darker. It’s vital to remember that darkness comes to bring us truth and understanding. It is the only way we can face our demons in order to set them free.

4. Harvest — Of The Trees

[Instrumental]

In the olden days before grocery stores, autumn was a season of harvesting crops and conserving them in preparation for the dead of winter. In modern times we can still relate — collecting fun summer memories in anticipation of the lonely winter. As we gradually spend less time going out, and more time cozying up in bed with a heated blanket, we transition from “doing” to “reflecting.” We harvest our experiences and think about what we learned, what we would do differently, what we should change.

5. Sweater Weather — The Neighbourhood

Head in the clouds, but my gravity’s centered.”

As we get into October, it’s officially time for snuggly sweaters… yet still warm enough for high-waisted shorts.

6. Darkside — Alan Walker

Don’t be afraid, the shadows know me.”

The more you fight the darkness, the stronger it gets. The more you suppress the darkness, the greater power it gains. Slide into the darkness naturally and without fear.

7. The Veil — Black Sun Empire [ft. Noisia]

“It has been a long journey of deep sleep and automation, but now the veil is no longer.”

Halloween marks the time when the veil between the living and the dead is at its thinnest. The veil is what blocks us from awareness. Once removed, we see things that we believed could not exist. What would happen if you removed the veil between the consciousness and the unconscious?

8. Ghosts – Japan

“Just when I think I’m winning, when I’ve broken every door, the ghosts of my life blow wilder than before.”

This is an experimental track from 1982. It is an eerie song about feeling cursed. I really like the use of xylophone here.

9. Don’t Get Spooked — Dubloadz [ft. Virtual Riot]

There a many strange happenings, my boy, many mysteries beyond the power of the human mind the comprehend.”

This spooky song totally captures the mischievous nature of the season. Play with your fears, have fun with them!

10. Friend of the Devil — Grateful Dead

I set out running but I take my time.”

This reiterates “making a deal with the devil.” What goes up must come down, all highs come with lows, everything catches up to you, no such thing as free lunch, etc. “The devil” is generally used as a symbol that represents everything that is negative. However, symbolically speaking, “the devil” essentially represents “the deal” — giving something up in order to get something else. It is not necessarily evil, nor is it holy. The things we fear the most in life are the things that can give us great pleasure and great pain, simultaneously.

11. Insanity — Mangal Suvarnan [ft. Eshani S]

“You’ve made a slave out of me with your memories.”

To lose your mind means to give up everything you know. It’s not uncommon to find yourself in situations when you are forced to reconsider everything you thought that you knew was true.

12. Cry Murder — Sumo Cyco

“Gonna go off on a tangent like a bandit thief in the night.”

You have to release all your rage and anger or else it will bubble up inside of you as resentment and come back later to haunt you. Halloween is when we dress up in costume and disguise ourselves in order to let our evil parts come out. Suddenly we all have a morbid sense humor and an admiration for horror films, as we decorate our house with skeletons and bloody vampires. (Sure some of us are like this all year, but this is the only socially acceptable time to embrace it.)

13. Dead AF — Krewella

Dancing with the skeletons out of all the graves you dug.”

Zombies walk among us. This song is about lifeless people who are still alive (zombies) because the only thing that they live for is money. They buy all their “friends” and rely on money, instead of good character, to win people over. Watch out for the zombies, steer clear of them if you want to stay alive.

14. bury a friend — Billie Eilish

“When we all fall asleep, where do we go?”

The message I get from this song is, “should I forgive you or kill you?” — to “kill someone” by cutting him/her out of your life and making him/her feel dead to you. And to “kill someone” means to kill a part of yourself — the memories and feelings inside of you that are tied to that person — essentially committing suicide. As dark as the song may seem, it is actually a positive message of forgiveness.

15. Eyes on Fire — Blue Foundation

“Felling any foe with my gaze.”

I see this as having the bravery to defeat your enemies — and the greatest enemy we have is ourselves. All of your ghosts, demons, etc. can be taken down as long as you believe in yourself. This song comes just as Halloween has ended, as the veil begins to close again and the dark begins to give up its fight with light. After making it through the scariest part of the year, you can now relax and have faith in your ability to overcome darkness.

16. The Gold It’s In The… — Pink Floyd

Count me in on the journey, don’t expect me to stay.”

November brings falling golden leaves. I see this song as feeling detached from the world and comfortable with letting go. Just going with the flow. There is great confidence that comes with embracing insecurity.

17. Fire and Gold — Bobby Saint

“Believe it, you’re a phoenix.”

Autumn is the process of burning down and surrounding yourself to death, so you are ready to be born again the winter.

18. Burn — Ellie Goulding

“They gonna see us from outer space. Light it up like we’re the stars of the human race.”

You burn down the past by letting go and learning to live in the moment. Worries, anxiety, and stress are all of the negative things that prevent us from fully feeling the present. Free yourself!

19. Golden Hair — Syd Barrett

Watching the fire dance on the floor.”

Syd Barrett is an interesting man who must’ve had the strangest, most colorful mind. This song is a balanced blend of eeriness and tranquility. How can someone make you feel so comfortable yet uncomfortable at the same time?

20. Good as Gold — Greyson Chance

I see the light at the end of the dark”

As we enter December, we truly feel the cold in this world and it becomes harder to keep your head held high. Everything around us has died — now we are ready for a fresh start. We made it through the darkest part of the year, we took down our personal demons, and now all that’s left to do is forgive. Keep going, the light is on it’s way — December 22nd.

21. Breaking Ties — OceanLab

How could we be so right and so wrong?”

Guilt is a heavy chain we wear that prevents us from reaching our higher selves. Forgiveness is freedom. Break free from the past and embrace a beautiful new beginning.

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Demons & Destiny ~ part 2

Part 1

PART 2:

The man was not only a priest, but High Priest, and it was of a secret mystery cult. A few years before her eighteenth, Autumn embarked on a spirit quest — a coming-of-age that everyone within the religion went through sometime around age thirteen or fourteen. It is a time of seclusion that involves fasting, praying, and disciplining oneself until an enlightenment is reached. It is done with the guidance and care of a High Priest or Priestess by the young seedling’s side in order to ensure a safe spiritual journey. Working as a bridge between Heaven and Earth, the High Priest/Priestess can channel information about the soul’s purpose and what his/her destiny is.

During Autumn’s spirit quest, she took her journey with the trusted High Priestess of her church. It was an incredible, life-transformative experience. She learned so much, but most importantly of all, who she was destined to spend eternity with! From then on, she fell completely obedient to discipline. She wanted to be Heaven’s perfect angel; she wanted to be completely pure, devoid of defiance. She craved constant reassurance that she was always on the correct path, never straying against intuition, not even for a second. Her greatest fear was living a life that had not been written in the stars. A slave to the planets and suns was who she strived to be.

After some time, Autumn found herself in a spiritual blockage, as if her soul had reached a plateau. It felt like a few of the stars in her sky were slightly out of place. She told herself that she was content, yet a very small part of her had a lot of anger from some unknown reason. It the part of her that needed to be disciplined, and it was indeed locked up in heavy chains. Only rarely would it escape in sharp flashes that caused an exponential amount of damage in a minuscule amount of time.

Desperate for more answers, Autumn sought out her High Priestess who had taken her on the spirit quest, and begged her for another round. Unfortunately she refused, claiming that it would be an abuse of power. She did, however, encourage the eager starseed to continue seeking within because that is where all the answers lie. With a sigh and an eye roll, Autumn carried on and continued doing her best to keep zen.

And then she met the High Priest, merely months before her destiny was about to be set in stone. He was actually a nomadic priest, traveling the world to teach others his wisdom, but when he came around to this area something made him decide to stay and become High Priest. From the moment she met him, she heard sirens in her head as if they were warning her that her whole life had the potential to destruct and transform into something entirely different beyond her wildest imagination just because of one person. Yet she confidently smiled upon greeting him, knowing that her outstanding discipline would never let her life come crashing down — for she was born an angel who never strayed from the path that was meant for her, blindly following the light at all times. (Or so she thought…)

She asked him if he would take her on a spirit quest, explaining how she wanted more answers and needed reassurance that she was on the right path. At first he resisted but with enough persistence he finally agreed. And so, they fasted and prayed together in the church until he could see a clear vision.

to be continued…


A Short Story ~ Demons & Destiny

I wrote some fiction, a little short story. It’s mainly based on some of the books I have been reading lately. Hope that others can possibly relate or find inspiration through it. Here it goes…


Her name is Autumn, and this is reflected through the natural golden and reddish highlights in her hair. Just like the season, her personality reflects total transformation. It is difficult to get to know her without letting a part of yourself die and another part of yourself be reborn.

She sits on the grass and stares at her reflection in the pond. Today is her 18th birthday and she is supposed to be at the Sunday church service with her family, finalizing the agreements of her arranged marriage. Instead, she is hiding from everybody. But there is no hiding from herself, as she continues to analyze her own reflection. Why am I so broken? She ponders, why can’t I just be happy?

It is only a matter of time before Autumn faces her inevitable fate and walks herself over to the church, sighing all the way there. Instead of walking in through the main entrance, she sneaks into the back where she finds her priest sitting in a small room where he is preparing for the sermon. The door is slightly cracked open and she gradually invites herself inside while knocking.

“Your family has been looking for you,” he tells her. He is a man who holds himself with power and authority, yet still treats others like his respective equals. Unlike other men who have lost their youthful spirit by his age, he is playful and humorous. However, anyone who misjudges him for a lack of seriousness or underestimates his command for honor will surely regret it.

“I just can’t do it!” she bursts into tears and throws herself on the bench next to the priest, “I can’t live like this!”

“Why not?” he shakes his head, “There is no need to fear. You’re marrying into an extremely wealthy, political, famous family; you will be safe for the rest of your long life.”

Autumn pauses for a moment before looking into his eyes with total desperation, “run away with me!” She pleads, “let’s run away together!”

The priest instantly chuckles and bows his head, “I don’t think so, young girl. You have a great imagination.”

“Stop pretending already,” she huffs in frustration, “You’re a religious man, undoubtably. So can’t you see that there is something out-of-this-world here, something beyond earthly matters? Don’t you teach your flock every week to follow their hearts?”

“I think the heart of the matter is that you have demons inside of yourself that you need to work on. As do I.” The priest stands up, clears his throat and adjusts himself. He excuses Autumn out of the room and tells her he has business to attend to.

And so she is left alone to face a destiny she cannot agree with. Her soul feels too unsettled to roll with the punches. There is too much energy inside of her. She was born to forge a path that she creates, not one that is simply given to her.


Autumn inspiration

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Pumpkin spice chai lattes, apple cider, salted caramel… horror films, occult literature, esoteric documentaries… graveyards, ghost stories, oracle readings… orange and red leaves, carved pumpkins, Halloween decor… hoodies, furry boots, flannel… humid and heavy air morphs into a crisp breeze…

Autumn is seriously my favorite time of year. Every season is beautiful (except spring, that’s the worst) but no season makes me happier than Fall. September means back-to-school (we never start school before Labor Day in NY, that’s just blasphemy). It’s quite difficult to enjoy Fall when you’re filled with a mixture of anxiety and dread about a new school year. There’s some excitement, especially during college days, but it’s just hard to enjoy nature when you’re being forced to throw your effort into the unnatural & manmade concept of school. You don’t notice the changing colors of the leaves until they’ve all fallen to the ground, because you are too occupied with buying the right supplies, adjusting to a major change in schedule, writing papers and memorizing things, etc. The mind is too busy in its own head to stop and look around. But now that I am a working lady who is currently untouchable to the back-to-school lifestyle, I feel like I can enjoy Fall so much more.

If winter represents death & rebirth, then autumn represents the process of dying. The days are getting shorter and the nights are getting longer, which means darkness is in the process of taking over. The celebration of Halloween reinforces the way that nature embraces darkness this time of year. What’s so scary about the dark? The light shields us, warms us, and shows us what we want to see. The darkness reveals everything that is hidden. When you hide and suppress your demons, you give them more power. You have to not only face them but befriend them and find ways to peacefully work with one another. You can’t kill them off, you can’t run away from them, and you can’t just pretend that they’re gone. Without darkness there would be no lightness, so they can either battle each other or they can complete each other in perfect harmony.

Psst… if you’re looking for a soundtrack to the season.