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75 Britney Spears Songs, Ranked

The legendary Miss Britney Spears is arguably The Top Dominatrix Goddess of pop music! She saved a dying genre and changed the music industry forever! Queen of controversy and center of conspiracies, Britney has been (and continues to be) battling against not only the media but her own record label making attempts to control and silence her power. Britney preaches the gospel of embracing one’s own sensual freedom that the world tells us to be ashamed of. Hardcore fans really do see “Godney” as a goddess, as channeling her energy brings magical empowerment.

Throughout her legacy, Britney has still managed to humble herself: staying true to her sweet and silly side, never taking herself too seriously (unlike most pop princesses.) Her bubbly persona is balanced with a dark side that she learned to lean on further into her career. With all the mistakes she’s made in life that have been publicly documented for the world to see, she never fails to rise above the drama. If you can look past the media’s manipulative overexposure, you are left with raw passion that even the shyest of us can embrace — because we are meant to live life to the fullest. Let her guide you into losing control and allowing the rhythm of your heartbeat to take over!

I’ve composed a list of 75 Britney Spears songs, ranked from worst to best. Of course I can’t include all her songs — only those that stand out to me, for better or worse.

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Memorial Servive for Gram

Yesterday was the memorial service for Gram. She will be missed dearly. The whole family was there, many who I haven’t seen in a while, as well as friends of hers who it was nice to meet for the first time. The service was just what she wanted (she literally planned it out before she passed away!) We sang her favorite hymns and I read one of her favorites, Psalm 100. People shared delightful and amusing stories of her. Afterwards, there was a slideshow and a collection of photos from her life. There was also some of her favorite foods — ice cream, pie, and candy. And we did the Schnitzelbank in her honor! Her spirit was certainly present through all the laughter and celebration of her life!

The family
My little brothers!!!

All around the world, statues crumble for me

Today, I turn 25-years old!

As I reflect upon these past twelve months, I feel I have made a total transformation. I’ve learned a lot and I continue to grow each year. As you get older, you can either get bitter or get better.

You should never judge what the universe has handed you. Everyone is unique and we all experience different situations. You should never compare your life to others, or the life you picture in your head.

You should be grateful for everything that gets thrown your way, everything you experience. The universe gives you gifts and it would be rude to decline or criticize what is handed to you, even if the packaging is falling apart and the gift is not what you pictured in your head.

If you open your mind wide enough, you can be thankful for each gift — without judgment. You were born to live a special and unique life. You were not born to fit a mold or do what everyone else is doing. You came here to get messy, get dirty, get scars — not to be perfect. It takes a lot of bravery to enjoy your life.

Thinking positive or negative is a choice. When you are down in the dumps, just let yourself feel the pain. Let yourself think that your life is miserable and always will be. Ride those waves. You will be surprised to see that it is only a matter of time before you feel refreshed and happy again.

I have thought a lot about expression and how we express ourselves. I realized how much I appreciate genuine emotion, even if it comes out “negative.” I understand why I act the way I do. I’ve thought a lot about how my unconscious actions can affect others, and how I can be more conscious of my behavior. I’ve thought about how we stand up for ourselves and how we draw boundaries. I’ve reflected upon good intentions that get interpreted negatively.

I feel like this is the year that I had to rebuild my confidence, tare it down and start from scratch. I’ve embarrassed myself so many times but I don’t regret it. I’m proud to say I’ve put my soul out there, and I’ve been judged and shamed for it, but I grew through it and learned how to defend myself and value my own opinion over anyone else’s. If you aren’t making a fool of yourself, then you’re not even living. You have to take risks and chances. People will be intimidated at worst, but inspired at best.

I’m ready for a new beginning!